ok thats some of the pics from halloween at the night safari on 30oct!

will these ever last?

when i ask a friend if i should apply to nie

the reply was
" go ahead,
2things in mind:
1)do it knowing you hate your job now and you need an exit
2)do it knowing you think you love teaching and this is a good gamble, not a random one."

i really came to a realization that im v unhappy at work

and i have no idea what i should do

Every day of our lives, we engage in self-discovery; we learn things about ourselves. For me, I have witnessed my increasing need for closure. I find it very difficult to live in uncertainty and ambiguity - I am essentially the problem solver. I will exhaust every means possible just to eliminate ambiguity. By closure, I do not only mean an outcome or an ending. Closure to me also means understanding the processes in between, getting a sense of all the thought trajectories and thereby understanding the cognitive activities behind explicit behavior. I am someone concerned with the implicit and the explicit; I am someone who dwells on a matter for long periods of time until I find an answer; I am what many call a stubborn person. When presented with a problem, my automatic processing always causes me to make external attributions and accompanying it, comes all sorts of negative affect. But because of my motivation to work around the problem, a lot of controlled processing subsequently comes into play. Eventually, I always end up with self-blame. I don't think I am someone with low self-esteem, neither am I a pessimistic person. It is interesting to know that I always point fingers at myself, and demand that I change. Change is not easy. The loss of self-worth and guilt brings about internal conflict and high amount of stress. Change is not easy and because it usually cannot be achieved in a short period of time, stress builds up. Stress, to many is just but a psychological state of mind or even a variable subject to threshold. Chronically, stress can bring about physiological reactions (that are more frightening than the psychological problem). I guess, the darkest of it all is the interaction of both in a vicious cycle. I hope I don't find myself in this abyss of darkness ever.

packing for vietnam! =)) exciting!

ok i know im too lazy to update

just give me a bit more time ok !

next week is hell week cos my boss is back after 2 months of MC

sigh!

family birthday dinner at imperial teochew ( super overpriced)


dinner w sam sue and pi at everything with fries then ice cream at daily scoop =)


then apple bees at triple one somerset with joel and hanyao b4 we caught karate kid which i thought was AWESOME


we brought jayden out for lunch yesterday! and he has grown SO HUGE!!


till we meet again in HK in july sam =))